January 21, 2006

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  8:56 AM (CST) You ever have one of those situations where, because of temporary schedule-lineups, you end up spending a lot of time with someone for a few days, but, then, once scheduling goes back to normal or gets really hectic, you don't see them at all for awhile?  You get kinda bummed, because you got used to being around that person, and then you start to miss them like you'd miss an old friend. Over the last few months, a large part of my personal life shut down as I tried to alter my path bit by bit.  I stopped dating (or trying to date ), I stopped going out as much, and, believe it or not, when I do go out, I've at least tried to reduce my amount of 'celebration.'  I've tried to curb my destructive emotions like anger, jealously, anxiety, lust...and it's been a hard ride.  I developed two worlds that started to exist too separately.  The last month or two has been about trying to reconsile that a bit.  At this point it doesn't really matter.  Most of my "crazy" friends are tied down pretty tight or have graduated; virtually no one is single (save me and studly-Sam Skully).  So, it's not like there's much that I've been missing out on.  The times of hard days and wild nights have long since ended - it's a marvel I was able to get everyone over even once a week for the Podcast (which, in my dreams, I still desire to start up again...). So, when you spend like 4 or 5 days hanging out closely with the kind of friend you thought you'd never have again, someone up for early-night korean, mid-night beers, late-night movie, and late-late-night biscuits, someone who kind of wakes up stuff you thought you'd long given up and lost, then yeah, you miss the hell out of them.  You even start to question some of the things you wanted to change about yourself...but then you quickly retreat and feel guilty for ever considering such a thing.  But, slowly, you creep back out.  And endless cycle of indecision and risk...hugs and cheers. Anyway, yeah...this post is kinda going nowhere.  I guess I just wanted to put that out there.  You all can throw it back if you don't like it. -------- Show tonight in Effingham, 9PM.  We're supposed to check in by 7.  I'll be driving my mom to O'Hare, trying to get her there by 3 and be back on the road again by 3:30.  I doubt I'll make it there by 7, but the rest of the boys should.  I'm a little nervous about my amp...it's tempermental.  I resoldered some of my guitar connections so those are right as rain, but that amp has always been trouble.  If i had a spare hour, I might even consider going out and buying one.  but, I don't have a spare hour.  My best hope is that Meister brings his clean Vox, and the diamond (lil smokie) has his red distortion petal and I can make do with that.  I definitely need to get a new amp. Oh, by the way, we have another show, Feb 11, in Momexico!  At the River Bar or some junky place like that, where Meister and I saw 10-min-vsion et all a few weeks ago. Willis, sorry for missing your party tonight.  I'll dedicate a song to you. I am also unoriginal. create your own visited states map or check out these Google Hacks. Ciao Currently Listening You Could Have It So Much Better By Franz Ferdinand Currently Listening Apologies to the Queen Mary By Wolf Parade

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